Baby Fever and Weight Frustration

Hey Everybody!

So yesterday I went to meet the two precious little boys that I am going to be babysitting some weekends. Oh my gosh they are so precious but the 2 year old is WILD! I guess this is good practice for our own kids though. The almost 1 year old is so sweet he just wanted to sit in my lap and go to sleep. They gave me baby fever so bad! I can't wait to get our first foster placement. It also gave me a taste of boys and man will I have my hands full if we get a boy!

As far as the foster care goes, we are still waiting. Our training was supposed to start at the end of February, but as it goes when working with the state, we are now starting April 4th! Oh well better late than never and it has given me extra time to get the house together and get things together for all different age children. We are so excited and can't wait to start making a difference in these children's lives.

Now for the weight frustration part of the title. I am at that in between stage in sizes. My current size is very very loose but the size down is too tight still to be comfortable. It fits but its tight. But I'm taking that as motivation to work hard because if I lose just a few more pounds the size smaller will fit perfectly.

I am almost over this upper respiratory infection so as soon as I can breathe I will be back in the gym busting my butt. I'm so ready to be back on track with this journey and get this weight off for good. I am proud of myself though, I have slipped back into being lazy lately but I haven't gained any weight back. I have stayed the same size for a while now. Which is a good thing, but I'm tired of being this size.

Not really anything else to talk about hopefully starting next week I can start working out more and then I will start seeing results that I can tell you about. I am so excited to see what God has in store for me and my hopefully soon growing family.

Thanks for reading!

Lots of Love,
Sara (The Biggest Loser Reject)

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope."
                                                       Jeremiah 29:11 

How Fast Time Flies

Hey Y'all!

So I was just thinking that it has almost been a year since I started this crazy weight loss journey. I am no where near where I wanted to be but I have always been the type of person to set crazy goals for myself then have no motivation to meet them. I think today is the day that stops. I need to start making attainable goals that I actually know I can reach so I will stay motivated and encouraged. My goal is to hit the 50 pound mark by my birthday (May 17th.) This is for several reasons, my own personal achievement, and also to try and make my doctor happy and be able to do something that I need to do and my weight has been holding me back.

Eric and I are planning a trip to Galveston for my birthday with some friends and I have so much I want to do so I need to lose the weight before then. I think that will be enough motivation to make me do it. The crappy part is I have been sick for almost two weeks now with an upper respiratory infection. So working out has not been an option at all. Eric's work schedule also sucks hardcore right now and he doesn't get off until 12:30AM. Which means, I stay up until he gets off work, which means I haven't been sleeping as much as I should be. I know this is affecting my mood, which affects my weight, which affects my mood.... see a pattern there?

Anyway enough griping and making excuses. This is going to be a short post just to say, I've been on this journey for 10 months now and I have made HUGE progress but its time to turn it up a notch (or two.) This girl is fixing to be skinny and happy with herself for the first time in a long time.

I sent a message to The Biggest Loser yesterday to see if I could come to the Dallas open casting call as an at home success story. So that is another motivator because I don't want to go and be like "Oh yeah I lost 35 pounds on my own." I want to say I lost 50+ pounds! I may have fallen down a few times but I will get back up every single time and keep going.

Anyway, that's all for today. Thanks for reading!

Lots of Love,
Sara (The Biggest Loser Reject)

The godly may trip seven times, but they will get up again.
                                                                                                       - Proverbs 24:16

Guess who's back!!!

OK guys I am so so so so infinity so sorry I haven't posted in like forever! Please please forgive me? OK, thanks :) Lets move on.....

So I am still on my weight loss journey but have recently not stopped caring just stopped trying and having motivation. I watched the finale of The Biggest Loser last night and OH MY GOSH that was all the motivation I needed! I'm so ready to get back on track and do this. I realized that I can't do this without my blog, you people motivate me so much and it is great accountability for me.

I did a couple weeks ago have a training session with a personal trainer and thought I was going to die! Seriously he has this big grin the whole time and it makes you want to slap him in the face. But it was amazing because when I finished I could say that I did it and survived and know just how far I can be pushed. Truth be told I probably could have gone a LITTLE farther.

I love you guys so much! I have been told by numerous people that my blog inspires and motivates them and that is another reason I have started it back up. I promise to be faithful this time. If I can inspire someone on my journey then that is amazing.

I posted on Facebook last night a thank you to The Biggest Loser for not picking me to be on this season that just finished. I got so much out of watching this season all the contestants were so motivating and this season just really touched me. I also realized that while I didn't lose 100+ pounds like most of them have, I have lost 35 pounds on my own, in the real world, without 8+ hours a day of personal training, and a controlled environment. 

Trust me guys if I can do this, anyone can! So, that being said, I'm getting back on track and I hope you all will help keep me motivated and accountable. Thank you so much for all the support!

Lots of Love,
Sara (The Biggest Loser Reject)

Titus 3:5

"he saved us, not because of the righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He washed away our sins, giving us a new birth and new life through the Holy Spirit."

Rude people and encouraging friends

I wasn't going to post today but decided to after last nights incident at the gym. For those of you who don't know, while at the gym last night I was referred to as a "fat ass" by two guys. I ended my workout early and went home crying. I know I should not have let them get the best of me but I did for a little while. I posted what happened on my Facebook page and to my surprise, there were over 90 comments within a little over an hour. I was so touched by what so many people had to say to encourage me to not let mean people get to me. I have since removed the post because it was not the fault of the gym so I don't want them to get a bad rep because of it. I am going to continue on my journey and continue going to that same gym. I was contacted by a manager and he assured me that it would be taken care of this morning. I weighed this morning and have lost another 2 pounds for a total of 22 pounds so far! That combined with the fact that I learned this weekend that I can wear into some of my old "skinny" jeans again, puts me in a great mood. I have around 145 pounds to go and that in no way scares or intimidates me. I am looking forward to this journey. I want to thank those two guys because they have lit a fire under this "fat ass" and I will be back in the gym right next to them today. I may not be able to go as hard or as long as they can but I'm in there and that's all that matters. So thank you to everyone who reads this for supporting me through this journey. I couldn't do it without each and every one of y'all! That's all for today. Thanks for reading!


Lots of Love,
Sara (The Biggest Loser Reject)

Today's verse is about strength:

^"She is clothed with strength and dignity and she laughs without fear of the future."

                                                                                                                       Proverbs 31:25

Sorry mom but this will also be my next tattoo. :)

I'm FINALLY back and I FINALLY did it!!

OK I'm really really really infinity times really sorry that I haven't written in so long..... I have been swamped with work and school and photography and life in general. But the important thing is that I have had so many people ask if I was still doing this so I know y'all read it and that means so much to me! I can't get over how many people have told me my blog is inspirational and if I can inspire somebody to better themselves then I will certainly keep writing.

Not much has happened since I wrote last just life. My dog had her puppies 5 of them! We are selling them and they are all boys so if you want one let me know! They will be ready for their homes the second week in December. I have been doing my classroom observations and love it! So far I have observed, 6th grade, 1st grade, and today I'm going to the High School. I don't have a favorite yet!

OK if you're wondering what the "I FINALLY did it!!" portion of the title of this post is about..... DRUMROLL PLEASE........... I have lost 20 pounds!!!!! I was so doing my happy dance all over the house this morning despite the fact that I'm sure Eric didn't really appreciate it since he was still sleeping. AAAGGHH!!! I'm so flippin excited! I have been teetering on the 18-19 pound mark for weeks now! Well those 20 pounds can kiss the !*&$#@ that they probably came off of because they are NEVER coming back! I got to buy new shirts the other day that were in the regular section NOT THE WOMEN'S SECTION! This may not be a big deal to you, but being 24 years old I don't want to have to shop in the "bigger, old women's" section for clothes, I want the cute trendy clothes! They are not a 1,2, whatever X, they are an XL and I have never been prouder to buy an XL shirt before! I could probably go down a pant size too but I'm scared they will be too tight so I haven't tried yet. My biggest thing so far is I have a collar bone! I know for guys thats not a big deal but girls reading this will understand, its a big flippin deal to have a collar bone!!

OK well I think thats all of the update for this one. I will continue writing and will write again Monday! Have a great weekend! Thanks for reading!!!

Lots of Love,
Sara (The Biggest Loser Reject)

My verse for the day is about achievement:

"I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” 
                                                                                                John 16:33

Hello October!

Ok seriously where has 2012 gone???? It's October 1st, I had a goal to hit the 20 pound mark by this morning and I came SOOOO close, I have 2.4 pounds to go. Anyway, this morning I started the Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred DVD. UMMM yeah my body is not a fan. I am going to start trying it after work instead of before work because I dont do well with waking up early. I will hit my 20 pound mark by this weekend. I just know I will.

We had a great weekend of doing a whole lot of nothing besides going to church yesterday. Oh and we went to the gym and I did 2.25 miles on the stair climber!!! I have proof!!

This month is Spina Bifida Awareness month. All I am going to say, is that so much more is known now about this birth defect than when I was born with it. There have been so many advances made, so ladies, please do your research and learn what you can do to prevent it. 

Here is my monthly updated picture! YAY!!!

Tonight, Eric and I are starting our planned meals, tonight is chicken tacos with black beans. OMG I'm so excited it sounds delishes!

Well I guess that's all for today, thanks for reading!

Lots of Love,

Sara (The Biggest Loser Reject)

Today's verse is again about trusting God and HIS plan for you life. Not trying to show God what YOUR plan for your life is.

"'In the same way I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be born,' says the Lord. 'If I cause you the pain, I will not stop you from giving birth to your new nation.'" says your God.
             Isaiah 66:9

Baby Zoe!!

OK so one of my bestest friends in the whole wide world, Ericka, is having my little "niece" Zoe. She has a c-section scheduled for October 29th but from the picture I saw last night, Zoe doesn't want to wait that long. She has dropped so much! I'm so excited!!! I can't wait to meet my little bug and love on her. Plus by the time she is old enough to remember, I will be skinny Auntie Water Bug. Don't ask where that name came from haha! I made these letters for her nursery and I have some clothes for her and a picture frame.... Child is already spoiled by Auntie!

Anyway, no weight loss between yesterday and today but I'm still pushing on, I have 4 days to lost my 5.4 pounds, I can do it I know I can!!

I got my closet all organized last night for Lola, that is where she likes to have her puppies for some reason. She has already set up a little nest in the back corner to get ready for them. I have a feeling that Zoe and the puppies will come on the same day or at least in the same week. I'm just hoping that it isn't the weekend I'm out of town.

I am going grocery shopping probably tomorrow after work to embark on my first attempt at a weeks worth of meals and snack for Eric and I for $100 or less. I know I can do it. It's been fun getting everything together to plan meals and find deals. I've almost turned it into a competition between me and the store. I will win!

Anyway that's all for today I have lots of work to do. Thanks for reading!

Lots of Love,
Sara (The Biggest Loser Reject)

Today's verse is about competition. Because I am very competitive and even just said that I was turning my shopping mission into a competition between me and the store.

"Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one receives the prize? So run that you may obtain it." 
                                    1 Corinthians 9:24